Sunday, February 26, 2006
it suddenly dawned upon me that, when i say i love twoten, am i directing this to the people i usually hang out with, or including everyone in class? somehow i think im directing this more to the people i usually hang out with, in the sense that it sounds more logical. because i have so many things to say that im not exactly very pleased with twoten. and when i say this, it made me think, i have a part in the flaws of twoten which i listed out yesterday on the piece of paper which sunlao asked us to write down what we really feel. everyone in twoten plays a part in making the class more united. if someone takes the initiative to start, everyone else in twoten should start getting into that mood. cos if they dun, then its no use even if someone volunteers to take the lead, right?
and talking about taking initiatives, if we get blamed for volunteering to go and get the class tee, then why encourage us to speak up during class? i mean, it totally contradicts. you want us to take the initiative and possess more leadership skills, we do it. and now you're not happy. like hello. are we able to control the fact that the class tee quality sucks? are we to blame for the bad quality? and not to mention the fact that we are already trying to bargain with the uncle for more refund.
okay back to the main point. so why isit that twoten is so segregated? its because of the fact that people dont mix around with the other people in class alot. they keep hanging around with the same people all the time. and some people are so introverted that when we talk to them, they try to shun away. ARE WE THAT SCARY? we are perhaps just mere bitches in the class. is there a need to try to get away? i mean, maybe some of u are just plain shy and stuff but we do have feelings okay. you're not the only one with feelings. so just spare a thought for us when u say such things. cos word does pass from mouth to mouth.
ohwell. you know there's this certain pattern in all humans. that is right, after a certain activity, we sorta maintain the same attitude for a while. then after a while, that attitude disappears. and thats whats happening to twoten. its like. i think lifeskills camp is really useful. as in seriously, it really bonds the class. at least thats how i feel. and we'll remain friendly to each other for a few weeks, and then all of a sudden, that bond just dies off. and everyone remains cold to each other. sometimes i find it damn irritating when i wave to people and they dun seem to react to it. whether they're trying to ignore or whatsoever other reason which i dunno of, at least TRY to make the class a better place right. at least TRY to make it more united right. its not like we're not trying. but we need the whole class to try TOGETHER.
well, i guess sometimes we cant force certain things from happening. maybe time will heal all these. all the conflicts we've had in the past year. and everything will go back like how it used to be. somehow i hope we'd go back to what we were last time, how innocent we were when we were young. then all this wouldnt happen. how i wish.
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